Today, I’m going to tell you a story, a story about my sexuality. If you’ve been following me for a while (and that includes my old blog) you’ll have witnessed this journey but I thought for Pride, it would be nice to tell it to all of you who might not know. This is going to be quite simplistic so that it’s not too boring but please feel free to ask any questions you have.
So, I first started questioning my sexuality around Year 10 (when I was 15). I just got this feeling that I just wasn’t straight, I don’t even know when I started to question it. I knew straight just didn’t fit me. That’s when I started wondering whether I was bisexual but I started researching different sexualities and I just couldn’t find one that fitted.
Then, one of my friends mentioned they were asexual. I didn’t research asexuals for a while after but when I did, my mind was blown. I ticked like every box and it made a lot of stuff make sense like being uncomfortable when it comes to sex and never experiencing any sexual desires. On the 5th August 2017, I came out as asexual online and honestly, it was a freeing experience.
I was pretty happy just referring to myself as asexual until Dodie appeared. Now, I had been a fan of Dodie for a while and she released her I’m Bisexual song.
After listening to this song, I just couldn’t get it out of my head and some level connected with it. As you know, I had questioned whether I was bisexual before and my mind started down that path again. Then I watched a video by someone, I can’t remember who, who said they thought that kissing someone of the same gender was gross. I thought of kissing a girl and wasn’t grossed out in the slightest.
Then, it was like a bi explosion! I kept thinking about kissing girls a lot of the time. I realised I had a crush on a girl and aah! The thing is, I knew I wasn’t sexually attracted to girls. So, what was I?
With some further research, I realised that i could be asexual and like girls! One of the big thing with asexuals that there is a difference between sexual attraction and romantic attraction. I could have a romantic attraction with either gender but I wasn’t sexually attractive to them. Thus, I became bi-romantic asexual!
So, there you have it. I hope you liked this post. Remember to send in questions for a Q and A!